kageyuki wrote:I don't think it's just the age.. I dunno... something else seems to wear me down pretty heavily...
I used to feel that way as well.  I let the stresses of everyday life wear me down...not enough money, crappy job, can't spend enough time with the kids, much less feed them.  And then I woke up one morning and realized that I could continue to bitch about my crappy life, or embrace it and own it.  So, yeah, I'm still dirt poor, can barely feed my kids, but I love my job and I make sure that spending time with them comes first.  And I remember how fun I was at 12, how much wonder there was in the world and I try to live my life that way.  I try not to be bitter and jaded (I fail at that quite a bit 

 ), but at least I try.
Oh, and a couple years of therapy and medication helped too 
