OK, feel free to tell me I'm on crack, but I kind of think the letter's to Cassie...
I posted it on the other thread, but here it is again.
Here's my theory on the letter. I think the letter is to Cassie; Tach's sister was tagged for the ceremony, and the she's comparing her relationship with her sister to Cassie's relationship with Bree. Check it:
we couldn't travel that far "because of my sister's obligations." I hated her for that. I hated her so much.
Tach hated her sister; Cassie hated Bree.
I bet you know what that's like--in fact, I know you do. It keeps you awake at night, that anger that you can't let go of...all because someone drilled into your head a sense of inferiority.
Cassie is/was definitely angry and jealous.
Knowing what you dealt with awhile back
The Cassie meltdown at the hands of Op took place while Tach was undercover, so she witnessed it.
really helped me put things in perspective. It helped me make peace with that part of my past, because I realized that my sister was never the enemy.
Watching the debacle from her new perspective, Tach empathizes with Bree and therefore in retrospect realizes it wasn't her sister's fault.
There are other people to blame for creating that situation, but I also blame myself for not even trying to do anything about it except act like a spoiled brat.
Nice jab at Cassie for being a brat.
But your situation is different in many ways…it’s almost the opposite actually. Although from what you’ve told me, maturity was neither of your strong suits (so at least we have that in common).
Still, I know that how it all played out left a really bad taste in your mouth that you’ll probably carry around for the rest of your adulthood (the same way I held onto mine to the point where it almost ruined what little childhood I could cling to).
Not sure if this fits the theory--cassie would have had to be in touch with Tach for "from what you've told me" to make sense.
And yes, you can at least feel better about blaming yourself for the mess you got yourself into because a lot of it was actually your fault. (I may suck at sympathy, but writing it out really does wonders for my own issues LOL).
another dig at Cassie.
However, there might be an opportunity for you to resolve some of these feelings that you are still carrying around, or at the very least maybe settle the score. I’ll tell you more about it in a few days, once I do a little more research, because I want to be absolutely sure--plus there's another pressing task at hand that needs to be dealt with, once and for all.
unrelated to my theory. What's the task?
I don’t want to ruin the surprise, and you shouldn’t get your hopes up yet, but I will tell you this much: We’re not going on vacation and no one is going to Disneyland, but if what I suspect turns out to be true, well...it damn well proves that it’s a small world after all.
"it's a small world" could mean bringing Cassie back in all her glory.
I could be totally off base--maybe wishful thinking. I'll going to ask Op what she thinks.[/quote]