True free will and the Order: The goals of an individual?

EricaCrowley · Post by **EricaCrowley** » Thu Jun 28, 2007 11:35 pm

Aerrow

I've missed talking with you.

Erica

EricaCrowley · Post by **EricaCrowley** » Fri Jun 29, 2007 9:10 pm

I’ve been reading all these posts about Bree and her freedom. I actually was concerned that she might feel resentful at the fact that she is recovering at an HoO compound rather than back at home. Now I am completely envious of her situation. Bree is at least in a beautiful place in California where she can wander the grounds freely. Spend time with whoever she wants and have a much need rest.

I on the hand was almost killed and am now living in this awful building like some type of prisoner. I am very mad right now. I am mad at Victor for making me come to live at the Dakota.

This is the same f_cking building where they filmed Rosemary’s Baby. Both the book and the film scared the hell out of me when I was a child. Also this is the same place where John Lennon was killed. I don’t even known all that much about the man except for the fact that his wife lives in the building and if I remember correctly she seems like a nice if not rather eccentric woman. I just don’t understand how she can live here after what happened to her husband outside. I remember when I was a child one of the Watchers showed me the spot where he was shot. It completely freaked me out. First that awful movie and then a dead musician, this building is cursed and feels liked it is haunted. I have always hated this place. When I was young they would make me stay here often and I always cried myself to sleep.

I never became comfortable with this place until I was in high school (I wasn’t home-schooled. They sent me away to Phillips Exeter Academy in Andover. I then went on to Harvard College but lived in my own home.). The only good thing that ever happened to me here was meeting my boyfriend when I was 16. He was 32 at the time and had just bought an apartment in the building (he still owns it but like I have said before he splits most of his time these days between Providence and Georgia). He is not in the HoO or the OoD (which owns three floors in the Dakota) but I insisted that they not stop me from seeing him. After the attack in Paris he flew here to be with me but Victor won’t even let me go to his apartment. He can stay with me but I can’t stay with him, I’m a virtual prisoner in this place. Victor will not let me even leave the floor I am staying on, we own three floors in this building and I can’t even go to two of them for security reasons. I stuck on the middle floor. It is driving me crazy.

Victor has become so completely obsessed with my security that he has everyone who comes to see me searched, even my boyfriend and Gemma. I can’t even sleep in the bedroom I have used since I was a child because there are several windows over looking Central Park. I have to sleep in a windowless room and Victor tries to have the Watchers keep me away from any of the windows in my apartment. Don’t people need sunshine to live?

This war better not last long because it is killing me.

Erica

Aerrow · Post by **Aerrow** » Sat Jun 30, 2007 3:42 am

EricaCrowley wrote:Aerrow

I've missed talking with you.

Erica

Ahh, that is good, I was starting to think I was alone in feeling that way, lol.. Not like it's going to help much, because what are words worth, but I'm sorry to hear everything that is going on.. Yet I have to agree with the security issue.. I mean I know it sucks for you and all but it is really better this way, you could have died in the attack.. Actually I'm subtracting the part where you can't go to the other 2 floors though :-p, because thats just completely messed up.. Make sense for you to stay within the place with security everywhere and them keeping tabs on you, but to keep you trapped on 1 floor is just lame..

Well this is my longest post in awhile, lol.. Haven't posted much in your absence.. Nothing really interesting to comment on and not to many people worth talking to.. Well whatever, I was worried about you though and am happy that you are back..

Take good care of yourself..

EricaCrowley · Post by **EricaCrowley** » Sat Jun 30, 2007 10:47 pm

Aerrow wrote:
EricaCrowley wrote:Aerrow

I've missed talking with you.

Erica
Ahh, that is good, I was starting to think I was alone in feeling that way, lol.. Not like it's going to help much, because what are words worth, but I'm sorry to hear everything that is going on.. Yet I have to agree with the security issue.. I mean I know it sucks for you and all but it is really better this way, you could have died in the attack.. Actually I'm subtracting the part where you can't go to the other 2 floors though :-p, because thats just completely messed up.. Make sense for you to stay within the place with security everywhere and them keeping tabs on you, but to keep you trapped on 1 floor is just lame..

Well this is my longest post in awhile, lol.. Haven't posted much in your absence.. Nothing really interesting to comment on and not to many people worth talking to.. Well whatever, I was worried about you though and am happy that you are back..

Take good care of yourself..

Security is one thing but this is getting crazy. Victor’s reasoning for me not leaving the middle floor is that he can control who enters the other two floors. Where as if I were on one of those other floors during an attack it is more likely that I would be hurt, I assume he is right but it is a little ridicules. He is even paying the city to provide extra police protection for the building.

I really can’t take it much longer. I never went far from home before because of my health but at least I could go out into the garden. I asked Victor to let me go to my friend’s place in Georgia (with full security) and he said no. Have you ever heard of a resistance movement in Georgia other than the guys that want to “Punt Perdue”? I think I would be safer there then in a building which everyone knows I am staying in.

Victor and I have never been close. He is very smart but much to military for my taste. He of course has his place but at this point I feel like shooting him (at least in the foot or something). He works for me but unless I want to do something extreme such as “speaking with the authority of G_d” then what he says goes on matters of security and issues related to the war. I really feel like a prisoner at this point.

Victor has even assigned one of the O.o.T. Doctor’s to treat my health issues instead of allowing my Doctor who I have been seeing since I was a freshman in college to come in from Providence to continue treating me. The new Doctor is not friendly and doesn’t listen to my orders. He has reduced my medication with the goal of completely cutting some of it out in time. This has caused me trouble sleeping. I been drinking a lot more because of not having the proper medication to stabilize my condition and this is upsetting my boyfriend because he doesn’t like it when I drink to much. The whole situation is just bad.

Erica

Aerrow · Post by **Aerrow** » Sun Jul 01, 2007 1:16 am

Well I agree with your boyfriend though, I mean.. It's not like I know how you are when you drink, lol, but I just don't think you should be drinking.. You should have a level head at all times because in the situation that it sounds like you are in you never know when you are going to have to use quick thinking and such.. And since the KKK hasn't been much resisting anything really, lol.. Well there were some rumors a little back about a new KKK but that didn't seem to go anywhere, at least I don't think, lol, but as long as your white there really isn't much of a problem there.. Either way your situation is horrible, sorry there isn't really anything I can do to help, well besides talk to you a little and wish for the best..

And didn't he announce where you were staying on the forums somewhere? I mean that doesn't really seem all that safe unless they are trying to like use you as bait to get the resistance to attack the house so they can get rid of some more of them.. But the security wouldn't have to be quite as tight if you were in a completely undisclosed location, just some random spot that no one would think of for you to be.. Go to Alaska!! I'm j/k of course

EricaCrowley · Post by **EricaCrowley** » Sun Jul 01, 2007 9:32 pm

Aerrow wrote:Well I agree with your boyfriend though, I mean.. It's not like I know how you are when you drink, lol, but I just don't think you should be drinking.. You should have a level head at all times because in the situation that it sounds like you are in you never know when you are going to have to use quick thinking and such.. And since the KKK hasn't been much resisting anything really, lol.. Well there were some rumors a little back about a new KKK but that didn't seem to go anywhere, at least I don't think, lol, but as long as your white there really isn't much of a problem there.. Either way your situation is horrible, sorry there isn't really anything I can do to help, well besides talk to you a little and wish for the best..

And didn't he announce where you were staying on the forums somewhere? I mean that doesn't really seem all that safe unless they are trying to like use you as bait to get the resistance to attack the house so they can get rid of some more of them.. But the security wouldn't have to be quite as tight if you were in a completely undisclosed location, just some random spot that no one would think of for you to be.. Go to Alaska!! I'm j/k of course

I’m trying but without my regular medication my nerves get very disturbed. A little extra wine helps with that problem. It’s not like I can drive anywhere, even if I knew how.

Victor didn’t hesitate to mention the building because K.T./O.o.T. headquarters has been here for over 80 years. The resistance knows this but is aware that it would be as difficult to attack us here as it would be for someone to attack the White House. It is the safest place in the world but I don’t want to be here anymore. If I hear one more of these liberal jackasses complain about Bree when she could go anywhere she wants, I am literally going to scream. The only prisoner of the Order is me.

Erica

EricaCrowley · Post by **EricaCrowley** » Tue Jul 03, 2007 3:43 pm

Aerrow wrote:I mean that doesn't really seem all that safe unless they are trying to like use you as bait to get the resistance to attack the house so they can get rid of some more of them..

I think it is safe now. At least considering how many people Victor has killed in the last two days. Maybe now he'll at least let me go out shopping.

Erica

Post by **Broken Kid** » Mon Jul 09, 2007 10:29 am

Moving this thread to the fanfiction character interaction area, as it quickly became a discussion between the acrowleyorder characters and fans.

EricaCrowley · Post by **EricaCrowley** » Mon Jul 09, 2007 10:34 am

Broken Kid wrote:Moving this thread to the fanfiction character interaction area, as it quickly became a discussion between the acrowleyorder characters and fans.

Thank you dear.

EricaCrowley · Post by **EricaCrowley** » Mon Jul 09, 2007 11:34 pm

Aerrow wrote:Go to Alaska!! I'm j/k of course

I need to go somewhere. Maybe I should just go to Alaska. What is it like?

Erica

New voice of reason · Post by **New voice of reason** » Wed Jul 11, 2007 1:36 am

Well, Erica,

don`t take that advice... The people who have attacked you might be reading here as well.

You should choose a place where no one thinks you could be.

I mean, as I said, I don`t want anyone to get hurt, neither you nor Bree nor any of her friends. The only interest I have is the freedom of Bree to decide what she really wants.

Yours
New Voice of reason